Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Step One to Becoming a Super Hero


The members of RLSH (real life super heroes: http://www.reallifesuperheroes.org/) might have different ideas then me on what the first step to becoming a super hero is. I think none of us could argue that getting superhero powers would be solid first step. I also wouldn't argue against the idea that having the desire to be a superhero is fundamental and perhaps the first step to being a super hero. Off scene, when they don't think anyone is paying attention I wouldn't be surprised if some members of RLSH think making up a persona, a name, a logo, or a costume is one of the first steps to becoming a RLSH. There are those members who take their civil duty to heart and would say that the first step is identifying the need, I like this brand of hero. For me though, the first step of becoming a superhero is having a superhero day job. Peter Parker freelanced for a newspaper. Clark Kent was a reporter for the Daily Planet, receiving late-breaking news before the general public. A job that gives you the inside track to the world and gives you the connections needed to fulfill your civil duty by night seem to be a choice job for a superhero. So, I have taken my first step into the realm of superheros. (For those of you already acquainted with a somewhat fictional character, Money Man, I don't know what to tell you.)

Went into the Phuket Gazette Tuesday for my second interview, which consisted of meeting the publisher, Joe, and re-testing my ability to write a news article. Joe is an elderly man in his 70s that still has a bright sprightliness in his eyes. He has a English gentry feel about him, despite growing up in Wisconsin. He came to the Far East for a two year stent with his bank back in the 60's. I was blown away by his reasoning for loving banking - the writing. The writing has to be concise and economical, and for him there was nothing better in the world. Sitting on the blue couches in his office we talked about my goals, where I was in my life, and why I wanted to get into journalism (superheros were not mentioned). I hadn't prepared answers for any of these questions, despite them being pretty obvious and important questions. So without textbook perfect answers I was as honest and genuine as I could be. After the interview I hammered out another story; this time I focused on what I had learned from the all-mighty internet about how to write a newspaper article, which mostly consisted of writing a good lead. A good lead had to included who, what, where, why, and how, because most people never got past the first paragraph - assuming they got past the headline. Half an hour was all the time I had. I read the article highlighted what seemed important and went to town. I didn't have a chance to read back over it and edit it. I hardly had a chance to write a conclusion. A couple minutes over the time limit I just stood up and popped into Chris's office.

We took a walk outside so he could smoke. The rain was coming down loud on the roof outside. Chris checked the direction of the wind and stood down-wind from me as he lit a cigarette. We talked about the commitment, the logistics, my worries, things I was excited about and what the contract would look like. He thought Joe liked me and was willing to give me a verbal offer. He was proud of his news team, though he couldn't let them know it. They did good work and he wanted me to join them. I was ecstatic, but nervous, because he hadn't even looked at what I had written. The rain kept coming down so I spent sometime at the office just reading archived issues of the paper. With no sign of the rain letting up I decided to wrap up in the space suit and head home to Jackie. I wasn't settled. Chris was going to send me a written agreement that afternoon. When the agreement arrived I would finally be able to relax, but the time passed and nothing came. I had lunch, and there was nothing. I had dinner, and there was nothing. The clock moved past the hours that the Gazette was open and everyone, even those staying late, would have headed home.

No e-mail when I woke up in the morning. But I did get a phone call. Chris was on the line. The Gazette had a four hour power outage yesterday, so he hadn't been able to e-mail me. He had talked with Joe about me, so it looks like the job offer hadn't been a 100% the day before. Now without question he wanted to offer me the position as sub-editor for the news team at the Phuket Gazette.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Vegetarian Festival Day 1 (Jackie)

The nine day Vegetarian festival kicked off today in Thailand with Phuket at the heart of its world-renown revelries. My brother would love it because vegetables are nowhere to be found, abstinence from meat here simply means deep frying everything within reach (unless it happens to be a vegetable).  It also means watching Ma Song men pierce their flesh with various sharp objects in the hopes of transferring evil from individuals onto themselves and bringing good luck to the community.



Isaac and I drove to Phuket Town with the tank hovering on empty, aimlessly drifting through tiny streets where we’ve never been, following flapping yellow and red banners that had popped out overnight in astonishing sporific profusion. We stopped when we spotted the tiny fried dough balls in greasy paper cones that we like so much and almost immediately saw a flood of people in white carrying tall sticks wrapped in colorful fabric. We found one of the ornate Chinese temples draped in wafting clouds of incense and swarming with people but hovered hesitantly nearby, not wanting to interrupt the religious ceremonies and worship with our wide eyes and lack of knowledge about the religious facets of the festival. All we knew was that there would be abundant self- mutilation; we’d already noticed the men with deep scars around their mouths pushing through the crowds, evidence of annually pierced cheeks that never heal completely. Suddenly we realized once again how little we know about anything here. We buried our self- deprecations in deep fried food as rain began to pour, driving everyone from the streets under the tiny awnings of food stands where only your nose gets wet if you don’t mind getting close with strangers.

Isaac put on his space ranger rain gear and we made a dash (more like slow walk) through the crush of people until we found a large traditional monastery. It was painted in vivid colors and guarded by stone lions with bulging eyes and golden dragons doing headstands on the roof. Men with gold flakes spread across their faces pushed through the crowd, sending the small gold bits spiraling toward puddles to mingle with singed firecracker wrappers.





The stone courtyard past the entrance was slick with rain and rang with the excited giggling of young boys tossing firecrackers into a shrine and the sharp blasts from the misguided missiles exploding underfoot. Chanting from a loudspeaker was obscured by the gentle cracking of a long rope guided by priests removing the sins of locals. The sounds echoed and blurred together with the sound of rain pounding down and combined with the swaths of sweet smelling amber and sandalwood incense to create the sense of being alone and all-seeing while being jostled by unchecked shoulders blocking a clear view in any direction. The scraps of sound, scents, and sight somehow all drifted to form a complete picture out of small bits. It also helped that whenever the rain got too intense everyone except those already huddled under the priests flags crammed inside of the temple only to slowly emerge and reengage when the rain subsided. 



Getting a Job Round 2


I made a follow up call up to the Gazette Monday. Chris explained to me that I had written "good English" in my piece, but I had failed to write a newspaper article. The grammar in the article was great, the sentence structures was fine, the over all structure of the story was perfect, but the leading sentence would never be seen in a newspaper article. He needed someone who had a nose for a story, someone who could see the headline and bust out a great lead paragraph and then just monkey around with the English for the rest of the story. I had attempted to stay true to the tone of the reporter when I had typed it up and my goal had been to write "good English," which is something I've been working on for years now and it hasn't come easily (some of you might point to this blog as an example, but I have so many things to edit and re-write in a day that sometimes the blog does get the short end of the stick, and I'm sorry about that). So I had accomplished my goal, but that wasn't all Chris was looking for, which is too bad because the other half of it I think I naturally have. I think I can read a report, find a story, and be entertaining and concise when I write about it. All this aside, Joe, the publisher, wanted to meet with me and Chris wanted to give me another editing test. This time I needed to focus on the story.

I was up early this morning. Only four hours of sleep the previous day put me to bed early and allowed me to get up several hours before I my meeting with Joe and the second editing test. I took a nice morning run on the beach. I think my runs (typically mid-day) have really been helping me pull through all of this as well as support from Jackie, my family, and my friends. The sand under my shoes is constantly shifting, but I try to find the most well packed path as I jog next to the ocean. Before passing the spot that I was attacked by a dog on my first run I still pick up a rock or a handful of sand.

 After a long shower and a fresh shave, I start dressing. There is a lot of concern and frustration at the Gazette with their turn-over rate. People just have things come up and skip town, then they have to go through the hiring process and the long training process to get a new person up to speed. Chris keeps saying "We'll lock you up in a one year contract." I'm fine with that. I'm actually trying to make it clear that if things go well and the job is a good fit for me that I would be interested in spending at least two years with the Gazette. With charcoal grey pants, a white button down, and a blue tie I think I'm ready. I went out a bought a dark blue tie yesterday. I feel like a dark blue tie might help impress upon them a sense of stability, seriousness, and lack of whimsicality, things I imagine they would like after having to deal with so many people just taking off.  I immediately and unconsciously counter this image by taking a heavy real feeling pellet gun that had been confiscated from one of Jackie's students ages ago from my desk drawer (apparently no one ever claimed it) and started aiming the gun at the mirror pretending to be a FBI or CIA agent, or at least a man who needs to dress sharply and carry a gun. Following my better judgment I only take a notebook and the Kindle to the interview, leaving the toy gun behind.

The Ninth Month of the Lunar Calendar


Flakes of gold wash down the steps of the Jui Tui Shrine and into the streets where they catch the grey light of the stormy day and shimmer.We have entered the ninth month of the lunar calendar,  and Phuket's Chinese Vegetarian Festival has begun. Unsure of where exactly the festivities were, Jackie and I grabbed a quick bite after school and headed towards Phuket Town. Given how many shrines there are we were confident that with a little luck we would find something.

More and more yellow banners and flags with red Chinese script flutter in the wind as we approach the shrines. There is a trickling and then a deluge of white robbed people in the streets. The road is closed off. Down each side, dozens and dozens of food vendors have established their base and are offering a variety of vegetarian foods, most of which look adequately deep fried. We turn off the main road and work against the crowd, occasionally someone holding a sheathed sword or a small beautiful hand-ax squeezes by us.


The shrine appears on the street like a mountain breaking through the morning's mist. The bend of the flag poles and the elegant ornate design of the entire shrine complex is breath taking. The golds and reds are vibrant against the dark grey sky. Jackie and I hesitantly stand at the entrance unsure if we are allowed in, but not wanting to miss out on the experience we start moving up the steps. I feel exceptionally out of place in my silver "space suit" rain pants and my blue shirt. Jackie at least had a white shirt to help her blend into the crowd. No one seemed to be bothered by our presence, so we pushed froward. 



People are drifting around the cobbled court yard of the complex. There are men and woman in costume carrying whips and banners on poles. Children too young to be without their mothers, teenagers, middleaged people, and the elderly all present themselves to the costumed individuals. As if possessed, the costumed person covers a kneeling person with their flag and starts chanting a prayer. Snap, snap, snap cracks the whip. Closer and closer the whip cracks, sometimes directly on the skin of those kneeling before them, but no one moves, no one flinches. A group of boys stand near a small tall ornate building. The red building is wrapped with gold dragons. A small door is open revealing piles of shredded red paper, firecracker paper. The boys take turns running up to the doorway and throwing lit firecrackers inside. More often then not the boys just end up toss the firecrackers or small fireworks on the ground to watch them explode. There was something wonderful about seeing children play with firecrackers in a crowd without overbearing adults robbing them of their celebration.


Sunday, September 25, 2011

TEFL Test

It's two a.m. and the rain outside is starting up again, cooling off the room. I'm tired. After 14 hours of working on my TEFL certification test I have finally submitted it. Jackie and I had been discussing it over the last few days and we were convinced that the test would be multiple choice and a breeze. Based off that assumption, what had seemed like a promising job prospect, and time/money running out fast I went ahead and downloaded the test today at 11:40. I had 24 hours to finish it. It wasn't multiple choice. The first 15 minutes of the test consisted of me starring blankly at the screen scrolling up and down, up and down, page after page, after page of open-ended questions.

The online portion of Jackie's test had been completely different, but she also had an in class portion to her course, which balanced everything out. For me it was one test, pass fail - no re-tries.

I sat down and started hammering out grammar and tried to avoid pitfalls, like sentences that were using the past perfect form in the future tense smashed up against gerunds - not pretty stuff. After the grammar there was phonics, teaching techniques, other teaching stuff, critiquing a video of a guy teaching, and writing a lesson plan. I was sensitive and ill-tempered all day, which wasn't good for Jackie and me. The stress of the test being so entirely different from what I had expected along with the other stresses that have been lingering since our arrival was just too much to handle in good form. Jackie and I did escape from the house together for a quick lunch and dinner, which were welcome breaks from the computer screen, which even now as I'm writing seems to be taking on a strange quality. I probably should have gone back over everything just to double double check and maybe do some editing, but the test had been open book and I'm too tired. I don't want to sleep on it. I want it to be done. So the test has been shipped back to  the International TEFL Corporation - wish me luck.

Dreamin' of that First Beautiful Paycheck (Jackie)

For the past month I’ve been scrapping by financially, living as cheaply as I possibly can and stretching the $1,200 I came with to the last baht.  With a lot of mental anguish and ague I’ve had to forgo doing a lot of the activities that I came to Thailand for (scuba, climbing, travel) and already had to turn down a lot of sweet adventures proposed by friends. I could always have thrown stuff on a credit card or pulled from my U.S. savings but I had everything so neatly paid off and squared away it hurt to think about. And now the wait is almost over!!! I get my first paycheck next week and while it’s a piddly amount by U.S standards, it rocks out here! So here is the list of all the things I’ve waited so ‘patiently’ to do (and by patiently I mean moaned and complained incessantly for the last 3 weeks):


(Fun fact: If you step on a coin to stop it from rolling away you can go to jail because you will have just stepped on the King Bhumibol Adulyadej's face!)

1.  Plane ticket to Chiang Mai or Bangkok (I get a week paid vacation in a couple weeks!)
      2..Thai lessons (desperately need)
        3. Surf board rental (6 more weeks of good surf)
       4. Tennis racquet
       5. Dave’s birthday present! ( j/k…it’s already in the mail ;)
        6. Better motorbike helmet
       7. Buy and cook fresh seafood!
       8. Going out $$ (so I don’t have to buy that paint thinner-esque local whiskey or sip on 1 drink the whole night out)
        9. Movie night $$ (Wednesdays are ½ price at central festival and everyone goes)
      10. Watch a Muay Thai match (great matches and BBQ events at the end of every month at Tiger MT)
      11. Shoes/clothes/jewelry…everything’s super cute and cheap here and it’s been a nightmare trying to avoid buying ANYTHING! (I’ve done exceptionally well though ladies, done ya proud ;)

(One of my "splurges," partying it up with South African friends for the Rugby World Cup)

             12. Ah, and of course, resume getting hour long massages

OHHHHHHH, I cannot wait!!

Things that’ll take more than 1 paycheck/aren’t in season yet
       1. Plane ticket to Bali/ Malaysia
       2. Scuba diving (6 weeks til pristine ocean)
       3. Underwater casing for my camera
       4. Climbing in Krabi

A few notes about the general cost of things here: Plane tickets are $20-$70 to almost all destinations in Asia, heaping platefuls of spicy deliciousness are ~$2, I spend $3/month on my phone, ~ $20/month on gas for the motorbike, and $150 on rent…. So even after I blow the majority of my 1st paycheck just cause I finally have expendable money I’ll still be able to start saving for an awesome multi-country, multi-month tour of Asia during my summer vacation! Yippee!!

Friday, September 23, 2011

No Sympathy for Mollusks

When Jackie and I first started searching the tide pools near our house we found several stunning shells (Fredrick and Mr. Trout being perfect examples) and ended up returning them to the ocean. Fredrick in all of his red and speckled-gold awesomeness probably would still be returned to the the tide pools, Mr. Trout however wouldn't stand a chance. It's odd how quickly things have changed. We went from leaving any occupied shell, to collecting dozens and dozens of living mollusks to look for pearls or just because they had a more than averagely interesting shell. I have had to cut down on the amount of oysters I collect on any given visit to the tide pools since our first harvest. It took me three days to get through all of the shells (more because I just didn't get around to then the shear amount of them), so now I'm trying to collect only what I feel like cleaning that day.

(And that is why my right hand keeps getting stabbed)

 (Give Jackie some time and I'm sure these will be turned into something beautiful)

Walking through the water at sunset and listening to the muezzin reciting the adhan is as enchanting as Jackie described it in her last post. During these outing pure logic seems to slip away from me. An oyster will be clinging to a bit of rock, wedged in deeply. I'll go to pluck it and more often then not it comes free easily, but there are those that put up a fight, as much of a fight as can be expected from a tiny mollusk. That's the moment when logic seems to be sent to the penalty box, for suddenly I become almost convinced that leaving behind this particular mollusk is as good as leaving behind a pearl. In my head there is a link between the quality of the struggle and the value of the item, which, as I sit at my computer, doesn't seem to make much sense when it comes to collecting mollusks. I feel it necessary to keep up to date that, which I assume many people are very curious about. So, I'll be honest - I've still not found a single pearl, lots of pretty shells though!

Originally I was going to leave for Penang, Malaysia Wednesday night so I could get a two month tourist visa. However, because I would need to go there again, if I got the job at the Phuket Gazette, to get a b non-immigrant visa , Chris recommended that I just go to Ranong, Myanmar and get 15 day visa exemption, which is similar to the what I have now. The main difference is that when I first got here I arrived by plane so I got 30 days, but the trip to Ranong is over land, so I only get 15 days. I was delighted to just get the 15 day exemption, because it allowed me to do my visa run with Jackie, who needed to get the 15 day visa exemption  for a similar reason and because it seemed like a very good sign about the job. After my interview Tuesday,  Chris told me that they would try to get back to me sometime Thursday.

Five in the morning Thursday, Jackie and I stumble through our morning routine and walk to the nearest 7/11 to meet our ride to the minibus that will be taking us to Ranong at the boarder of Thailand and Myanmar. The minibus was probably more comfortable then my bed. It was wall to wall big reclining seats. The seats actually laid all the way back and the air conditioning was blasting. The Phuket Gazette didn't open until 9:00am and who knows when they were going to have the time to look over everything and make a decision, so I just went back to sleep. If I wan't such a pro sleeper I think I would have lost a little hair from my head because of nerves, as it was I slept off most of the nervousness. I unconsciously waited to hear back from the Gazette to see what track my life was getting ready to be thrown across. The time slipped by. It was 10:00am and then 11:00am and then noon and still no word from the Gazette. I worried that people might save bad news for the end of the work day, putting it off for as long as possible.

We got off the minibus at a gas station/parking lot. Passing through a walkway cut in a cement wall we headed towards, what I assumed was a river. On the other side of the wall was a street full of food vendors. A variety of kebabs, fried chicken, and fresh fruit were out on display. I would have never guessed that we were approaching the Thai immigration office. There were no gates or guards. 

In front of us the broad roofed walkway went down a series of steps and ended in heavy boat traffic and a small muddy waterway. What was across from us, battered shack like buildings on high cement pillars was identical to what was on our side. My first thought was, "What a shit border." Of course being a farang and new to this sort of thing I had no idea what I was talking about. The waterway itself was no wider then a a baseball toss from center field to home-base - I was not impressed. We stood in line with our departure slips (We have been told that it could cost up to 20,000 Baht if we didn't have them, but a woman traveling with us got hers replaced for free, along with bunch of grumbling from a border official.) and took in the nauseating smell of the river. If I was a man with a keener nose I'm sure I would have noticed the smell before the size of the waterway, but as it was I mostly just unimpressed with the waterway. Passports stamped, we loaded up in one of the few covered boats at dock and headed for Myanmar, which I had very wrongly assumed was just across the waterway. Eventually, we pulled away from the majority of boat traffic, which consisted of traditional Thai longtail boats. These wooden vessels, which had enough wear and tear on their painted hulls that they could have all been built in the 40s, were powered by fascinating outboard motors. The shaft of these motors is close to ten feet long, which created some interesting maneuvering techniques that included swinging the the spinning propeller across the front side of the boat. I couldn't help but imagine that people get clipped and lose a chunk of their face or shoulder from time to time. 



The worn buildings and tin roofed shacks suddenly gave way to an expanse of water dotted with tiny lush green islands and larger mountains that were part of the main land. It would have been breath taking if our plastic chairs that had been hammered into place inside the boat weren't so close to the engine, which thundered away like the most haphazardly built and defunct robot of the 1960s. The sound, pounding away in our ear drums and shaking us in our seats, made it nearly impossible to be awestruck my the majestic mountain sides and islands. Somehow the engine served as a constant reminder of a harsher reality that from our distance we were at could have been ignored. Golden statues and temples sporadically peaked out from the dense green mountain sides. One island, not much bigger than our house was home to an enormous golden statue with an elegant Chinese dragon wrapped around its base. That's when it occurred to me - Chris didn't have my phone number, he had Jackie's phone number, because that was the number on my CV. Jackie got out her phone - three missed calls. I was ecstatic! A closer look at the phone revealed that two of the missed calls were from me, which left one missed call from an unknown number - Chris.

That damn thundering engine would made it impossible to call Chris back from the boat. So I had to wait. Sitting there unable to do anything because of the noise I tried roll playing both of my reactions, depending on the news. I was so anxious. I had actually brought along the editing test I had taken during my interview. I guess the interview could have been broken up into four parts: talking about my CV with Chris and Steven, taking a "How well do you know Phuket" test, meeting some of the upper management (Ann), and most importantly an editing test. Chris had been very positive through the whole interview. Constantly he was helping me spin things to look their best. So often he just saw the positive aspects of what I said and did. My meeting with Ann, the managing director,  was very short, but seemed solid. Earlier I was left alone for ten minutes to take the "How well do you know Phuket" test and I apparently I don't know squat. There wasn't a single question that I knew the answer to and only two that I ventured guesses on (which after some research turned out to be entirely wrong). But learning about Phuket was going to be part of the uphill battle if I got the job and probably one of the most exciting aspects it. Lastly, there was the editing test. I had gone over common grammatical errors the night before. They gave me a "live" article that one of their reporters was currently working on. It was nothing like what I expected. Three paragraphs into the article I still wasn't sure what the main controversy was about. Without trying to edit anything I read through the article. I made notes on what the article was about and then I started selecting sections of quoted texts that I thought were grammatically sound enough to use in the article. With that done, I launched into re-writing the article. I felt exceptionally lucky to have just recently gotten experience doing article re-writes as a free lance internet content writer. Softly to myself I read each word out loud, over and over again. I struggled with determining if certain places should have commas or not. The editor behind me who was actually a graduate from Indiana University suggested that I talk with the reporter if I needed any clarifications, so I did. An hour later I figured I was done. They had wanted me to finish in 45 minutes or so, but nobody came by to check on me and I had been so immersed in what I was doing that I hadn't paid any attention to the time, not that the time really mattered. Chris printed off two hard copies one for me and one for him.

Had I parked in the front or back? he asked. The back was the employ parking lot and the front was for visitors. I smiled and told him the front, I hadn't wanted to be too presumptuous. He gave a small laugh. We spoke in general about how long I would stay with the paper and  how far away I lived, which would eventually put me in some nasty spots due to the fact that I was on a moped. He had a lot of small worries that made me feel like he was getting ready to take me in under his wing. 

"Feet up," he said as I was taking off. He'd once been with a girl who had her foot impaled by stick while driving a moped and dragging her feet, so feet up it was.

We arrived in Myanmar. I hadn't had the nerve to look at the edit I had done for the editing test. Throughout the interview Chris just kept telling me that it all boiled down to words, how good I was with words, how good I was at finding the story and editing it. So it all seemed to come down to the editing test and I couldn't look at it. What was done was done. I wouldn't even let Jackie look at it, but I had brought it along so when I got the news good or bad I could let Jackie read it and explain to me how big of an idiot I was. 

We got off the boat and headed towards a small building at the landing. Over the open entrance and into a dimly lit blue building that had a sign, which informed all visitors that they weren't permitted to go no further than 5km or 3 miles from that point. Myanmar obviously isn't eager to have guests at the moment. The guys who were in charge of our visa run handed a thin stack of crisp, new ten dollar bills to a man behind a small table. The man slowly looked at the front of each bill testing for counterfeits, then he flipped the stack of bills over and slowly looked over the backs of each bill. During this time our guides were using the official stamps on the table and stamping our passports and then passing them to the official who was quickly signing off on them. 

I couldn't wait any longer. Stepping outside I called the number back. A Thai man answered the phone. Chris is a wild haired Australian. After some confusion it was established that the man had been calling for Jackie, apparently someone from her school. Disheartened I passed the phone off to Jackie. 

Thursday passed without a call from the Phuket Gazette. And now, as I write this, Friday has passed without a call. I assume that Chris and Steven will be in touch with me one way or the other, so maybe no news is simply no news, but in the news business it strikes me that no news has to be bad news for a paper and it's potential editors. On the bright side, I should mention that they were hiring for two positions, so if I don't get the job I actually will have failed twice, but it also means that I am more likely to get the job.

The job itself sounds incredible, but for fear of jinxing what little hope I have left I'll wait before I share. Currently, however, I am back to working on my TEFL certification and preparing to start passing out my resume on Monday. 

Monday, September 19, 2011

A change in the current?

Having gotten a great deal accomplished early in the day, I sit on the front porch shucking oysters as a small storm continues its daily business. The tip of their shells are fragile and flake off as I stick the blade of my knife between their two halves and start to wiggle it back and forth. Sometimes the knife slips; I've got several cuts on my thumb because of it. Listening to the rain I gently wiggle the blade further and further back, and then there is a release as the knife tip cuts the the abductor muscle. The internal organs of the mollusk are so fascinating, because they are so clearly defined. I scrape the insides of the oyster out, delighted that some of the shells I'm cleaning have such beautiful mother of pearl interiors - promising pieces for the jewelry Jackie is  making. I throw the shells into a bucket of water and then pull another small thin mollusk from another bucket, which contains yesterdays harvest.

While out in the tide pool prying the oysters off chunks of rock or dead coral I referred to it as "collecting" oysters; Jackie corrected me - harvesting. She's right. I'm not casually picking up random shells. We are actively hunting down oysters, well at least I am. The idea that I could find a pearl electrifies me. On average three tons of pearl oysters produce three or four perfect pearls, which does not bode well for my search, because I'm not even sure if the mollusks I'm opening are actually one of the species that are commercially used to produce pearls. Along the Rawai beach front there are merchants selling millions of perfect pearls and shells. I doubt that any of them are wild pearls, but none the less the sheer quantity is stunning.

    


                                               








Luckily for me I'm not looking for a perfect pearl. I'm looking for any little precious gem, regardless of its market value, and all species of clams and oysters do produce pearls, some just produce better ones more often. Walking along through the tide pool searching for the big waving lips of  one of the giant clams I keep imaging finding one with a pearl the size of an egg and it being the largest ever found. It's fun to run through all the details of that sort of discovery from finding it, to the auction house, to the way I'd spend the money. I've gotten hold of several giant clam shells now. I say "giant clam shells" hesitantly, because they are very big, as long as my forearm or maybe as long as my arm, but they aren't the infamous "man-eating" giant clams of South Pacific lore. I absolutely love the "giant clam shells" and have several projects involving them on the back burner. Sadly I've left the best giant clam shell I've found so far out in the tide pool. We stumbled on it early on our walk and they are surprisingly heavy and hard to carry, so I dug it up and decided to come back for it, but sun had set by the time we were heading to shore, so I didn't have much of a chance.

I have an interview tomorrow. Jackie and I switched back phones (long story) and she received a call from Chris and relayed the message that I needed to call him back ASAP about the sub-editor position at the Phuket Gazette. I've ironed my lavender dress shirt and matched it with a dark purple tie that Barbara gave me when I was still working for Arthur Murray. I polished my black dress shoes, while watching Casino with Jackie. I've also taken the time to look over the Phuket Gazette's online publication again, as well as lot of the most common grammatical mistakes people make - I will be taking an editing test as part of my interview. Chris sounded very enthusiastic about meeting me and giving me a chance. He said that after reviewing my CV he had a much better idea of how I could fit in with the team. We talked about some of practical elements of getting the job, such as my visa, where the Gazette is located, what the hours would be and that sort of thing. To say I'm nervous doesn't even come close to capturing how I feel about this. I am more like a hyper-aware prize pig on slaughter day, than a man going to an interview. How this opportunity has been flung back into my path is beyond me, but I'm very grateful for it. A large factor in me getting the job, outside of the obviousness of being able to edit, will be how long I am willing to stay in Phuket. Chris originally got a cold start, and he's willing to give me the same opportunity, but the learning curve will be extremely steep. He estimated that it would take about six months before they could take the training wheels off me and another six months before I'll know the island. I know I would be willing to stay here for at least two years if I had a job that I enjoyed and was moving my career down the right path, so I'm planning on telling him that I'll be willing to stay a minimum of two years and I can only hope that it will be enough.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Home is When the Tide is Out (Jackie)


Barefoot, I walked onto the coral studded sand the ocean had left behind in its nightly rush to escape the mountains and realized that I had found my home.










Every evening I walk into the tide pools the ocean leaves behind and search for pretty shells and unique creatures to examine, poke, and play with. Every night I crouch in the mostly dead coral and listen to the pops and cracks of creatures coming up for air, crabs clacking pinchers on rocks, and the general scuttling around that’s associated with marine life in the pools. I watch the sun set in spectacular ways from a 360 view, ankle deep in water, hearing the waves break in the distance. I turn slowly in corals and watch as golds and oranges and pinks radiate from the sun and shine over the dark mountains. I rotate a step further and am awestruck by the rippling orange and purple clouds silhouetting the gigantic marble Buddha statute that watches peacefully from the mountain top. Another few degrees and the sky is electric pink and baby blue as if some mischievous child had stuck cotton candy in the sky while no one was looking. Further still and the sky over the ocean begins to darken into deep shades of blue and purple. As the sun sets musical chants from the nearby mosque call people to worship and I stand lulled by the music in the endless expanse of sand and coral, feeling as if I am the only person in the world. Listening to the waves and distant music I gaze at the enormous Buddha and know suddenly that there is nowhere in the world I’d rather be. Nowhere where I feel as peaceful, content, and genuinely at home than in the ever changing yet invariably stunning tide pools.



I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH FINALS FOREVER!!

Today was the first day if finals for the kids at KKJ. First day of finals for me means grading papers, submitting final grades, bagging up final exams, and then rotating back and forth between ‘invigilating’ final exams which can only be described as a fabulous means of torture, and doing whatever I want as long as I stay near campus. Invigilating consists of spending between 1-2.5 hrs watching kids sit in chairs and scribble frantically while we stand and stare at them. We are forbidden to do absolutely anything else. No phones, no books, no doodling paper, nothing. I felt terrible for the kids who had to take a 2.5hr math exam until I had to WATCH them take it. I’d much rather struggle through math problems than watch people do math problems any day, though I never thought I’d ever be in a situation where I'd admit i'd rather do math!  Anyway, since the time is pretty evenly divided I have lots of hours to do whatever I want so I’ve decided to dedicate the time to learning new things. Today I learned how to draw. I had no internet so I drew the only thing I found a pic of and listened to the only CD I have on my computer-Foo Fighters (I usually get all my music via grooveshark-internet based). Here is what I drew. I’m actually quite proud of it!


 I should also mention that the only writing utensil I had was a blue ink pen which makes shading really arduous for a non artsy person like me!!

Fucket


The spiral continues. My appetite has come back, which is a blessing. Yesterday was the first day that I had three solid meals and even had room for some snacking. Jackie wasn't up for coming to the 7/11 to grab some snacks last night, so I went ahead and tried to pick up some stuff that she would have probably avoided. I ended up with Jing Jank Fish, which are tiny bit size dried fish that are covered with poppy seeds, a sweetener and some hot pepper. They were interesting, crunching, and fishy for sure.

I'm trying to stay positive about everything, but it's almost impossible given how set I seem to be fucking it up. I've been job hunting a lot recently in addition to trying to grind it out doing freelance writing, which I don't think will ever produce enough money for me to live off of. I had originally taken down the post "Ain't Living No Dream," because, despite some grammatical issues, I had put the Blog on my CV to the Phuket Gazette and that entry wasn't really the kind of first impression I wanted to give an employer.

I can't tell you how happy I was when I got an e-mail back from Chris at the Phuket Gazette. He wanted to talk with me. I spent the next morning brushing up on SEO (seearch engine optimizing) theory and gave him a call. He hadn't gotten my CV, the attachment had been removed by the Phuket Gazette's security, so the fact that he wanted to talk with me really didn't mean a whole lot. We had a quick talk and in many ways I was what he was looking for, but I didn't know the island well and I also didn't speak Thai, those were both strikes against me. If I had ANY newspaper editing experience I would probably have been able to land the job, but I don't. I don't have any kind of newspaper experience at all. I didn't work with The Optimist at Bloomington South High School and I had no affiliation with The Indiana Daily Student (IDS) at Indiana University. He asked that I review the job description and then maybe send him my CV. I looked over the job description and couldn't help but think that a break like this would be amazing. How many writers start out at newspapers? Of course I forgot that most writers can actually write grammatically correct English. In my reply to him with the CV attached I wrote the following.

Letter to Chris at the Phuket Gazette:

"Chris,

Thanks for talking with me today. I looked back over the add inPhuket Gazette and despite being new to Phuket and not having learned Thai yet, I think I will be a great addition to your staff. I am incredibly curious about Phuket and the topics that are important to both Thai nationals and the expat community. I more then willing to work extended hours to insure that concise and clearly written news pieces are flawlessly edited by their deadlines. I have attached my CV as requested. If  there is any further information that I can provide you with, please don't hesitate to let me know.

Thank You,
Isaac Stone Simonelli"


It would be hilarious if I didn't need the job, but as it is I can't fully express how upsetting it is to see myself squander opportunities at a time that so few seem to be within reach. I was nervously looking back on the message today to see when I sent it, so I could time a follow up call and let him know how writing is my life's passion and how I would be grateful for an opportunity to be a part of the Phuket Gazette - that's when I caught some of the grammatical issues. What burns is the fact that I had read over it several times and was worried about how wordy that particular sentence was.

As you might have surmised poker is still not going well. I'm desperately trying to pull my game out of a spiral. I am getting good input from friends on what changes I can make, but the nose dive continues. As it is I can't imagine turning a profit this month - too far down the rabbit's hole. With backup plans heading for the windows in a high-rise and my finances quickly being depleted I'm still scrambling to find a solution. I'm taking a TEFL course right now in hopes of getting my certification and getting a teaching job here in Phuket, maybe at the same school Jackie is teaching at. This would of course require me to pass the TEFL course. I am taking it without a tutor and the whole course depends on me passing a single 24 hour open book test. Given my current track record, I must admit that I am nervous, but I'm doing all the readings and trying to take the worksheets seriously and it's hard to take an entire worksheet on desk arrangements seriously. 

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Daily Expenses

- 3D Movie (140) (Wednesday is 1/2 price movies at the theater!)
- Lunch for 2 and two coffees (110)
- Fixing a flat tire (130)
- Chocolate (40)
- 11kg of laundry (330)
- big bunch of little bananas (25)
- moped fuel (100)
- chicken thigh (15)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Our First Visit to Big Buddha

After getting to sleep in until 10:00 on Saturday morning Jackie and I got up and headed out to see the Big Buddha in person. Up the lush jungle hedged road and past the rubber tree farms we went. As we approached from the backside, Buddha's enormous head rose above the tree line; it made Jackie and me both think a little of Godzilla (no offense of course)! At the top we were surprised to see that the Buddha and the whole area was still under construction. For a 100baht you can actually make merit by purchasing one of the small marble tiles that are being used to cover the entire 45 meter statue.



https://picasaweb.google.com/101782615335640844329/Buddha?authkey=Gv1sRgCJr8tJ6N0e3EwgE
(More pictures here!)

After taking it all in and getting blessed by a monk Jackie and I were ready to head back to the house and explore the tide pools. Before we started back down the mountain Jackie needed to use the restroom, which is how we fell in with the monkeys. Behind the building selling gifts and things to offer the monks there was an entire troop of monkeys. The monkey in the video ends up finding something pretty interesting, so wait for it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXtvLCpfRB8


Saturday, September 10, 2011

Today's Tide Pool 9/10/11

 (Jackie fearlessly heading our search for sea creatures and hidden treasures)

It's the weekend, so even with the change in the time of the tide Jackie and I were able to make it out and explore. With the  tide all the way out we were able to see more of the tide plane than we have in the past. The water closer to shore was almost uncomfortably warm and devoid of most animals, though we did see a couple crabs and a few small shrimp like creatures. Further out, the water was still so shallow that the strong wind was making the surface too chopping to see. It was a little depressing at first, because we had been looking forward to getting out into the tide pool all week. Giving up and heading back, we decided to swing towards the north a little first. The denser concentration of rocks and deep tide pools north of us saved the waters surface from the wind and opened up the doors of exploration. We saw more spotted eels and were able to nab a few pictures of some new sea creatures. Jackie has started to collect lots of different pieces of shells and broken coral for a dozen or more unnamed projects and I'm thrilled to be helping out.

Thick thunder clouds began to roll in over the mountains. They rushed at us, moving so fast as they were I thought they might actually miss there target like a Boeing B-52 does from time to time. W had just found what appeared to by the mouth of a giant clam shell, maybe two feet long. It's distinctive rippling lips were just above the surface of the sand. Hesitantly I started digging at it. There really wasn't anything else it could be. The rain started to come down lightly at first, but sheets of it were visible over the island. Frantically I started to dig and pull at the shell, but it wouldn't budge or come free of whatever substrate it was attached to. Then the rain came in hard and sideways. Tiny bee bee drops of rain pelted us. Jackie had started to walk back with the camera wrapped in a shirt across her chest, counting her steps so we could relocate the shell. I stayed with the shell until her lone figure pressed into the wind and rain was enough to make me feel guilty and I ran after her. The rain had cleared by the time we had hit the shore, but Jackie was wet and cold, so we decided to come back for the shell another day. I can't imagine finding it will be easy, but we'll try our best.

 (Not really sure what these are yet, but we've nick named them "black dongs.")



(On of the coolest shells we'v found yet, but our little hermit crab friend, Fredrick, was to cool to evict so we played with him for awhile and then let him be.)


(Watch Fredrick the hermit crab roll himself back over and find a place to park his shell.)

A Night Out

We took the long way back from the bar last night, seeing as I couldn't find the short way. The well lit deserted road wound through the mountainous landscape with the Andaman sea on our right. It felt like autumn was upon us with the smell of dry leaves in the cool air and a scattering of brown leaves on the road. As we approached partially cleared areas with large boulders I would slow trying to determine if they were worth coming back to and bring  the climbing shoes, after a moment I realized one of the smaller boulders in front of another was actually an elephant. The ride back took quite a bit longer then getting there and if it wasn't for the road signs I'm sure we would have had to call a friend for directions, however that wasn't the case. 

It was our first night seeing some a little of the bar scene in Phuket at night. We've walked through the bar district in Patong, but hadn't been around when things were really getting going. Jackie's co-workers were going out to celebrate Friday, which apparently doesn't come often enough in the week. Originally we were going to meet up at a place along Rawai beach, but we had a last minute change of venue and met a couple of the South African's at a 7/11 (a ton of the women who work with Jackie are South Africa, which seems strange to me) and headed to Nai Han, which is along the west coast. Not as familiar with roads and the massive curving ups and downs of the road as they wiggle along the mountains I struggled to keep up with the mopeds in front of us. Despite the dark and the roads we all eventually arrived at Nai Han.

Once parked we walked through a couple of normal tourist looking restaurants with clean tile floors and fish tanks. Then we arrived at Ska Bar. It felt like you were entering a bar in a pirates port, not a pirate port themed tourists bar, though it was a farang bar, but it actually felt like you were entering Libertalia in the 1600's. A rasta DJ was enclosed in a old wooden wheel house built right into the narrow lower deck of the bar. Stretching above the open air bar was an enormous banyan tree. It's trunk, visible on the second desk of the bar, was wrapped in hundreds of yards of fabric and ribbons. Hanging from it's outstretched branches were a dozen or so old crab trap lines and buoys. From each of these lines many nations flags, weathered and tattered, flew in the light ocean breeze. I couldn't put my finger on why, but the whole atmosphere created by the tree made me think of Peter Pan's Lost Boys. We settled in on some low plank benches around a rough table. Below us on the beach a small troupe of three or four fire performers were at work. Feeling a little antisocial I focused on the performers. The youngest of the fire spinners was a thin Thai boy who was maybe ten or twelve. H moved with the music spinning the fire staff faster and faster as the music picked up. Then it was between his legs, wobble, wobble, like an enormous fiery dick. The older performers took the "stag"and did more fire staff and fire poi. It was some of the best fire poi and staff I've ever seen and I'm not exactly new to the art.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Ain't Living No Dream

      The juxtaposition of the setting and situation are almost literary right now. The tides have changed, so the tide is actually in when Jackie and I get back from school, which means occasionally we take some Thai ice tea down to the beach and watch the almost smooth ocean as it runs up against the sand. This does mean that it will be a little bit before we're able to update our "Tide Pools" segment. So this is the setting. I couldn't argue with a single element of it.
       I think I'm getting sick. I've been eating less than a meal a day over the last five days. I'm exhausted, but I can't nap. I can sleep at night thank God, but I can't nap. When I do try, (though I honestly don't have time for naps)  I just lay there arms tucked under my thighs. I'm sure I look like a single link of unhappy sausage.
       On top of being exhausted and not eating, my body aches. Everywhere aches as I sit in the dark writing this. It's this chair I think. I never leave it. Isn't it sad to be one minute from the coast and an assortment of adventures, but rarely make the time for them? The drapes are drawn all day; the lush green trees and their clinging ephiphytes aren't visible. I'm just sitting half naked in a large room with a laptop and the air-conditioning blasting. It's been another day of getting destroyed on the poker tables. Rob swooped in this morning and did a great coaching session with me, but when I hit the tables variance took over.
      I'm not sure how much more variance I can take in my life right now.  It has become painfully clear to me why people don't take off on adventures similar to Jackie's and mine. Even Jackie's adventure seems better planned then mine. Most people don't understand variance. If poker teaches you one thing, it's what variance is and how it feels to be on either side of that equilibrium. Variance is always there in poker. If I get all the money in on the flop, that's after three cards have come out, and I have something as cliché as "Big Slick" an Ace and a King (AK) and some fish calls me with an Ace and a Ten (AT), even if the board is Ace of hearts, Six of hearts, Five of clubs (Ah6h5c) the fish rightfully should win money 12.7% of the time. He has basically given away his money, but he's not dead, in fact he is entitled to 12.7% of that pot. Of course that's not how it works. He either hits his ten and takes the whole pot or he misses and I get it. Some days the fish get all the bait. In fact almost everyday I've opened up tables since our arrival the fish have left me with an empty bait bucket and nothing on the stringer, which is why Rob was helping me out with some coaching. Back home, when I had my own bankroll and even a little money in the bank I didn't stress over the variance. It happens. It's part of poker. Now, with already having to split half of my "profits" with my staker and not really sure how I’m going to make it from month to month it's hard to see a 230 euro pot get shipped the other way.
      It has been pointed out recently to me that I've fallen into a holding pattern. It's true. I doubt it seems like it to many people, since I'm suddenly in Thailand, but it is true. I'm not really sure I'm any closer to achieving my goals then I was a year ago. I'm actually further away. My career path is shaky at best. I keep telling people I want to be a writer, but only a very small percent of writers ever really end up in the money and I would assume those people are writing screenplays and novels. I'm like a child, still writing my short stories and hoping that they get published somewhere. That isn't a slam on the short story form, it’s one of my favorites, but it's no way to make a living. I've recently started doing internet content writing, which is a grind in itself. The first assignment, the one I'm still working on is five articles at 400 words a piece. The article topics are the following: Farmers furniture online and drop leaf tables; farmers home furniture and farmhouse dining table; farmhouse coffee table and farmers furniture; drop leaf table and farmers home furniture; and farmers furniture and drop leaf table. I get paid a penny a word for the articles and I have to check them for content duplication. I'm trying to picture James Joyce hammering through these mind numbing articles so he could move on to writing The Dubliners - it's hard to do. But if I want to be a writer I guess I have to start writing and I need the money. I've also started applying to jobs around Phuket. I've not been systematic about it, but I'm applying for English Lecture jobs, hotel jobs, and a sub-editor position at the Phuket Gazette. I'm pretty much doing anything I can so I don't have visa issues in five months. I'm not looking forward to the prospect of overstaying my visa and doing jail time.
           The clock on the wall constantly ticking, ticking, ticking, makes me think of my childhood home in Sanders. The other day when I was scrapping along the bottom trying hard to just end up knocked out so I didn't have to deal with anything I realized that I have no home to go to anymore. I think this sensation hits a lot of people at some point in their lives, but it's scary. It's scary because home has always symbolized a safe place, a place where you can lick your wounds, a place where the outside world isn't allowed in. With the lack of a long term visa and not having job that's supporting me Thailand certainly isn't going to be place to wide from the outside world. What I kept thinking about is that if flew back the United States right now, how would I pick a destination? There are obvious choices. I have family and friends, but I don't have that single place that I would fly to for sure.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Daily Expenses

I think Lloyds of London would have fired me by now, but here are some daily expenses:

- Flat tire (180)
- Daily fuel (50)
- Lunch for two (80)
- Dinner for two (80)
- 4 bootleg DVDs (240) (Bad Teacher was an awesome movie)
- 6-pack of soy milk (53)
- 6-pack chocolate milk (61)
- Iodine (25)

The best names you'll ever hear (Jackie)



Interesting fact about Thai culture: Last names are a relatively new requirement (early 1900’s) and the government dictated at that time that every family had to have a different sur name. Imagine only having one Smith family in America! This caused last names to become extravagant and many are actually translated phrases (One Who Does Good Work etc). Because the names (both first and last and multiple middle) are so complicated each Thai person also has a ‘play’ name that they use the majority of the time and even in official documents. Here is a class roster that I received today (official roster from the school records):
Bonnie
Book
Bow
Cha-Cha
Dinosaur
Joy
Junior
Kate
Milk
Mint
Nook
Notm
Oh
Pang
Peat
Pete 2
Ploy
Puenploy
Scene
Tiffy
Win

I could not pronounce any of these names in class yesterday. I repeated them over and over and was corrected every time. I felt terrible! Then I got this roster and realized why I was getting them all wrong, I wasn’t expecting a tiny boy with chubby pink cheeks and dimples to be called Dragon, or a little girl with electric blue eye shadow to be named Book.  I laughed hard when I read the roster because none of their names are remotely close to what I was struggling to pronounce in class.* In my defense, in Thai the last syllables of words have a tendency to disappear so even though Milk spells his name M-I-L-K, he actually pronounces it Meel. Martin sounds more like Mard and so on.  It’s great fun to grade their papers though, every class roster brings a fresh fit of laughter.
Notable names from my other classes: French fries, Shampoo, Dragon, Diamond (boy), Dew, Pie, Pink, Pop, Shopper, Nip, Milk, Benz (lots of these), Pig.  The new schedule for next semester starts soon so more to come as the classes change!

Also, my favorite funny student answer on a test today (these are endless)
Q: Name one way in which acid rain can affect the environment
Acceptable answers: The acid can wash minerals like calcium out of the soil and the lack of these minerals hurts trees and other plants. At higher altitudes, acid in clouds weakens trees so much that many mountaintops that were once forested are now barren. Rivers and lakes become more acid, and this affects plants and fish in the water.

A: Make a fish dead
So true, so painfully true.  You may have missed the larger picture but you’re right, acid rain does tend to make a fish dead…somewhere in the world…eventually. but I think it’s worth a point, you cut straight to the chase and made me grin. Definitely worth a point.

All of my M2 and M3 students have left with their skinny red sticks and braided socks on week long Scout field trip, leaving the Mattayom floor exceptionally quiet for a change. Even though over half of my classes have been canceled, I am required to be here all day, every day, without anything extra to do. Today’s boredom was my fault, I should have brought my kindle instead of my laptop, the internet is just too slow here to get anything done.